I flew to NYC last Sunday in preparation for a 5-day transfer on Thursday. The week was full of setbacks, starting with the donor taking much longer to stimulate than expected. Over a week past her normal time frame.
They retrieved 27 eggs, which we were very excited about, but it was quickly overshadowed by only 14 fertilizing and then only 6 actually growing at a normal rate. On Tuesday, day 3, I got a call from the clinic. Bad news. All of the embryos were beginning to show fragmentation and they felt it would be best to do the transfer ASAP. So I packed my bags in a frenzy and jumped on a train to Connecticut and made it there by noon, and was inseminated by 1pm. We made the last minute decision to transfer 3 embryos in hopes that at least one will stick. All were 8-cell B grade with ~11% fragmentation. This is still within normal range from what I have read, but still not what we were hoping for.
I did a couple days of bed rest in CT and then went back to the city yesterday and met my IFs for lunch before heading to the airport. While we were at lunch, they got the call from the clinic that NONE of the embies made it to freeze. It was such a heartbreaking moment and I could tell they wanted to just sob after all the setbacks. I tried so hard to be positive for them and reassure them that this will work. It was very difficult!
I finally arrived home late last night and am now trying to take it very easy and not over exert myself. I have 25 pee sticks waiting and have already started, LOL. I think realistically I can expect an accurate result by mid-week next week. My beta is the 25th.
I'm really scared about the quality of the embryos, given what happened to the remaining three, but I'm trying to stay hopeful. We are all so confused because this was the donor's 4th donation and her eggs have always been excellent quality. We will probably never know what happened (personally I think they over-stimmed her and it affected egg quality, but I am no expert!) I just keep telling myself that it doesn't matter because this WILL work, I have never had a problem getting pregnant and all my bloodwork and uterine measurements were perfect! I've never been a very patient or optimistic person and this whole experience has really helped me develop those qualities and taught me how to handle things with more grace.
It has been so emotional and hard and I just want some good news for them for once. I will be on pins and needles until I get a positive test.
And besides all that, I am so angry with Circle and my lawyer for neglecting to tell me so many things that have had a large impact on me financially. This has not been the journey I expected or was promised by them and the ONLY thing I can say that they have done right is matching me with my IFs! That one thing alone is worth all the trouble I've had. I can't imagine doing this for anyone else.
I think I'm probably just very hormonal and emotionally spent after our long week, and I hate to complain at all. But, it is what it is. Positive thoughts from here on out.
My med cocktail
All systems go
The three fighting embies
Pineapple core was consumed after the transfer to help with implantation
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